inanimate

i wish i was a beautiful blanket, handmade with love
id be the comfiest and warmest blanket youve ever felt
you can hold me and id mold to you
ill try my best to keep you warm in the coldest of times
powered by your body heat, i can only help
i cant do it for you
but i will stay here
 ill always want you
even if you never bring me to the park for a picnic again

on god

i do not know your limitless devotion
i could never trust a promise aimed in my general direction
or love a man who lives in the dark

symmetry of the twins

bones laced and wound tightly
into cage
me inside
judged by what
and if i put out
only i keep track of what i take in
just you. im finding it
hard to keep my
i promised
ripping bonds formed
through loneliness
and through
go go go go go gone

i feel so indifferent towards
this you us
what are you going to do
does it even fucking matter
i dont know

what i'll miss
comfort ... questionable
my bed is comfortable plus or minus you
touch ...
too easy to find
harder to feel

youre little lips arent too special
i dont dream about the shape of your back
or your ass in my hands
i can sit next to you
and be so damn comfortable
i forget youre there
there is no static between us
the dull friction between us is not that nervous
exciting
awkward
oops
haha
cute

i wrote this so that i never forget how ugly i can be
dont ever do this to someone ever again