pre-existence

she to he to we ]
not one but all
not together but against
intentions turn to action without hesitation or contemplation
regrets turn to suns and moons inside

nothing real
matters as much as how much you thought about what you wanted to happen and what you thought was going to happen and what you thought you wanted to happen until it happened not the way you thought you wanted it to happen or maybe it didnt happen
because it didnt have to.
it existed in your mind
and my mind
there
it happened
it was real
i couldnt tell anyone what actually happened
but the happening
of the dream world stings with the air that u cant find ANYWHERE ELSE
you know the air that wont let you yell for help
and the air that haunted the night with its  cry of silence
and rrrrung in your ears and
your abdomen sore with flutters of the touches u couldnt tell anyone that happened because it didnt actually happen

its okay ill just forget it
i mean
you can just forget it